Has it really been a year since I last posted?
I’m still with my boyfriend, still living in our big old house with our fur babies living our domesticated lifestyle.
I’m still out of escorting. I still think about it everyday. I think I always will.
I’m waiting for my police checks to come back so I can start volunteering with a local women’s charity. The one I used when I was working. I quit my job to do it. It doesn’t pay so I currently have no source of income apart from my boyfriend giving me money when I need it, So that’s nice and fucking awful.
I have literally never been further from feeling like Lady Lust. The amount of Lust in my life is at an all time low. Relationship not what it used to be, sex life in non-existent. I don’t want to cheat, I do not think cheating is okay but I feel like it’s going to fucking happen wether I want it to or not because I’m such a bad.fucking.person.
I can’t remember the last time I was so fucking miserable. I know what I need to do, I know what is right and fair but feel incapable of doing it.
Currently sat drinking vodka alone and doing lines of a gram I found in my old handbag in my beautiful apartment that I hate.
Also, great to see tumblr still doesn’t work.
Wonder where I’ll be next year.
